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Pressing the reset button

 I believe that things always come back in a circle, just to repeat in the same patterns: things are down and I make improvements and things get better. But I also realized that although this may be true, it is also true that I take things to the next level with each repetition, building a higher tower each time it falls down. And in the same manner, I believe that I am rebuilding the tower from scratch. In fact, this time the tower has gone deep into the ground, due to the debt I acquired. However, that may be a good thing, as all the high towers have a deep foundation, a root to hold them as they climb high into the sky. I am more focused than ever, and I have my eyes set on the prize money. Financial freedom. I am laser-focused. I deserve all the money in the world, and the Universe will send its riches to me. There is infinite wealth to go around for everyone in this world. Money will stream into my life from all directions. I will be met with pleasant surprises of income, and ...
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Positive affirmations

 So if you have been following my blog, you would know that I have been in a real rut last two months. Now I am in an amazing place, and I feel fantastic. I was somewhat skeptical about this positive affirmation and the secret teachings, but now I am but convinced. I mean how could I not be, when after a long period of desperation and suffering, good things happen out of the blue. I am now in total belief that the secret's teachings are real, and that self-affirmations are the way to go. I spent about a week trying to tell my parents about my 10k credit debt, and then after I one day, randomly decided to write down the positive affirmations, miraculously, my mom and sister came home and saw the letters from the credit card company, and at the same time, the air bnb business that I put up started turning its gears. Now, it's been 2~3days and I have made 145 dollars out of the blue, and my parents have learned about my debt. What is this if this is not a miracle!! My greatest con...
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Jolly Christmas with Family

 Came to my parent's place seeking a place for refuge from my mental turmoils. I found it felt quite safe at home, however, I had trouble mustering up the will to confess about my debts. Regardless, I felt at ease that there was enough money if things came to extreme situations. I feel that this world is full of sharks and really I only got myself and my family that have my best interest at heart. It seemed though that they wanted me to continue being independent which I suppose I will. I feel that it is time for me to hatch from my egg, and fly high up in this world.
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Self sabotage

 I am about 30k in debt, and 10 k I have to pay up pretty soon. The credit card may have high interest, I am not sure because I didn't check when I applied for it. I have made an irrational decision and waited long enough to come to this point. I am not sure why I arrived at this point but here I am. I believe the reason for my irrational behavior was due to self-sabotage. I for some reason want to put myself in a high-pressure procrastinating situation, which I have been in before. Also, I reflected that I was in a similar situation when I finally started making profits from my drop shipping business, I just stopped working. Such irrational self-sabotage behavior is frustrating and irritating.
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A thought on Stoicism

I came across a period in my life where things seem very stale, the time has slowed down (while at the same time, inexplicably moving faster), and my dreams appear to have simmered down. I just felt like I needed some stability in my life and one word popped into my head. Stoicism. I remember learning from a youtube video on stoicism that we only experience the emotions we experience because we allow ourselves to interpret a certain event in that manner. For example, when I'm having a night out with my friends and getting drunk out of my mind, I could either choose to feel pure bliss and pleasure, or I could choose to feel miserable that I am wasting my time away and killing my brain cells with alcohol, killing my health with smoking, and messing up my sleeping schedule. Another example, imagine hearing some foul insults, and this came from someone intimidating or someone you care a lot from, ie, your significant other, your parents. This would be a very different experience as opp...
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Vision sight 20/20

 There is a different kind of eyesight. It is impossible to see with the eye but only by imagination. Not only can you see, but you can also smell, hear, taste, and feel it. It can never be observed in a reality we live in, and it only exists in our heads, however, one can guess it based on our five sensories and imagination. Perhaps it would be more accurate to describe this power as the eyesight of time, a sight that can look into the future and predict an accurate outcome. Imagine a crossroad, one path that is filled with filth and trash, another filled with wealth and riches. One would certainly choose the one with wealth and riches, however, it is not so obvious when this road is actually a metaphor for the passage of time, and the journey is the actions we take through time. Being able to see this road clearly is the power of vision sight that I speak of. It is the ability to see through time and accurately navigate your path so you arrive at the point you wish to after time ...
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